This week was a long one. I have started working on my own at the restaurant. I am finding in many ways that being fully present in the moment is the only way to work. Being at a table conversing with a customer, taking someone's order, tending to their needs, requires focus to do it well. The restaurant is always a swirl of action, operating in some ways like a well orchestrated play, everyone knowing their roles and next steps and yet in other ways it is more like controlled chaos. It is a delicate balance of being absolutely focused on what I am doing at any given moment and also being able to transition from moment to moment almost instantaneously. The minute I leave a table after taking an order I am instantly intensely focused on the next task.
The trick is making sure that in those moments I don't try to divide my attention. I am sure this is something that the 20-somethings are not giving this much thought to this level of their actions when they come to work, but it is something that even in my few short shifts I have noticed.
Today I'm trusting somehow the next 6-9-12 months will work out financially and that come next year this time, we will have a bit more breathing room.
I'm grateful for my family and their understanding that I am not around as much these days. I am grateful for their endless acceptance of me as who I am, and my less than perfect ability to keep a perfect home or tend a perfect garden. I am grateful that they love Marley as much as I do and are there to fill in the gaps when I am working.
I'm inspired my growth in personal insight. While I am still learning and sometimes stumbling as I grow, somehow along the way I have learned to be more gentle with myself, learned to hear what my body is saying, and learned how calm my mind (at least a little bit! It's a start!).
Happy Friday everyone!